Buffalo

My NEW new Favorite Place(s)

In the U.S., there are about 19,000 “incorporated places,” or cities. My heart aches because I have been driving nearly 2 months and haven’t made a dent in that list. I sincerely wish I could see them all, but that’s like trying to eat at least once in every restaurant in New York; even if you could do it, by the time you were “finished” with the list, five new places would be opening. This is an objective with no end–though trying would involve some really interesting meals, as my trying  to see as much as I could see these past weeks has brought me to some really interesting places.lagrange
This morning I’m in Indianapolis. I watched the Red Sox win the World Series from my seat in one of the coolest, old-school, grungy-in-a-good-way jazz bars I’ve ever been to. I did not expect to find that in Indianapolis but, in search of the ballgame with new friends at a conference here, we stumbled into the goodness. (I know: you want me to tell you the name and address. I’m going to have to edit this post later and add that — I need to go back with the camera.)
The point is simply this: Everywhere Colby and I have been on our journey, I have felt like I wished I could stay longer. That goes for the cities (Buffalo especially but I’ve loved them all) and the small towns (Horse Cave, Kentucky or Sullivan, Illinois or…pick a small town, any small town).Lori, Colby, flying saucer

I’m not saying there aren’t some strange and sad places, because there surely are and I’ve seen plenty. But every one of them has a story, and I have yet to find a story that I didn’t want to tell. And there is something about learning the stories of places that makes you love them, in a way, whatever kinds of places they are.

I’m just pausing on the road trip long enough to say hello and thank you to anyone I’ve met along the way who has either helped me on the journey or shown interest in it in some way. I have not had time to write about all these places yet, but that doesn’t mean theyweren’t all worthy of it. I hope you’ll stay tuned…

Scamp attack

The Victim and the Crime

Hero trucker

He made the call that saved my Benadryl.

scamp haul

The booty from the Scamp bust.

Thump thump thump.  It’s 5:38 a.m. “Louisville police.” Thump thump thump.
I’m dreaming of something scary anyhow so this pounding on my door at the Baymont Inn sort of blends in and it takes awhile for Louisville’s finest to rouse me. As the fog lifts, the first thing I think is, “did I do something?” Seriously. I run my night of baseball watching and BBQ eating through my brain.
“Lori? You in there? We need you to open the door.” I think it over. My conscience is clean. Colby, my watch dog, is still asleep—we have a king-sized bed with feather pillows, so, count him out for anything.
“Okay, I need to see badges,” I say, looking through the peephole (through which, in truth, I can see nothing but I want to sound like I know how this is done.)
“We’re in uniform, ma’am.”
“Right.” I open the door. The police in Louisville, Kentucky—at least the ones who draw the overnight shift on a Sunday–are apparently all fresh-faced, young, competent, and just totally adorable. In the next 30 minutes I’ll meet about 10 of them and they will all be so nice and good looking and, like, capable and focused and everything, I will want to be protected by them always. I don’t think the pair at my door smile as I stand there in my jammies but even hours later, I recall a sense of wanting to invite them in for a PJ party.
Anyhow, the crime: I’m in a city, so, I had taken a motel room and parked my Scamp out back, where it would be safe.
“Someone broke into your trailer, ma’am, and we need you to come see if you can identify any of the stuff the perpetrator took from it.” I can’t be certain they said “perpetrator” but anyhow, they tell me they got the guy; he’s been arrested and is outside. A trucker who had been sleeping in his cab saw someone climbing into my trailer and called 911; a couple minutes later it was over.
The burglar is sitting on the curb in the parking lot, cuffed. He is gangly and lean. Down there so near the ground, his knees seem to be up around his ears. He is in his burglar outfit: all black clothes, hoodie up over his head, black shoes. He is clean-shaven and young and makes me think of my students, sort of a young dopey kid with a hangdog expression. He says, “I’m real sorry that I done got you up out of bed, ma’am.”
I don’t really know what to say to this. It can’t have totally sunk in that he is going to jail now. I want to say something; I want to interview him, actually. But standing out back of the camper at 5:41 a.m., seeing that all he took from me was a box of Benadryl, and seeing that every police car in the city seems to have come down here because my Scamp—so easily violated, but don’t worry, I fixed that—has been burglarized, and the excellent servants of Louisville cannot let that stand… seeing this scene, what I feel is pity. Really.
I want to say I feel sorrow or anger or even curiosity and that I feel the perpetrator is worth a few questions on my recorder (which, with camera and notebook, reflexively I brought outside) but that is not how I feel. I just think this is pathetic. One of the cops even says that if I plan to write about this, I ought to add a chase and a shootout.
“These your things ma’am?” an officer asks.
“Yes—that’s my Benadryl, and that’s my jewelry bag.” The mention of the jewelry bag, which is empty, creates a flurry of activity and some shouts and various threats to the burglar idiot to cough up what he’s obviously hiding but, as it turns out, he didn’t take my jewelry. Just the bag. The jewelry is still in the trailer.
“It’s not like there was nothing in it worth much,” he says. “Nothin’ personal about your jewelry, ma’am.”
The police took him away, presumably to book him and for him to then enter a plea, presumably guilty, and then presumably for him to bargain his way back out of the charges so that he will be free to try this again and next time, he’ll be more careful, I should think. The police wrap things up and I am left there feeling like it should not seem so petty, and so pointless, stealing little pills to make harder drugs from them (because methamphetamine comes from cold pills, as surely we all know by now). I am left there thinking that even I could be more criminal than that.
I felt sad for hours. Then it was time to move on.

No More Sleeping Around!

IMG_2444My wanderlust is almost shameful. I desire nothing less than to try every town on the map, and Colby doesn’t mind too much, so long as I feed him wherever we go, and so far I always have.

Here is a list of places I’ve slept since Sept. 8: St. Johnsville, NY; Buffalo, NY—Motel 6, Silo City, Best Western; Allegheny National Forest; Oil Creek, Pa., Family Campground; Washington, Pa., KOA; Monroeville (Pittsburgh) Holiday Inn; Akron, Ohio; Rockford, Ill., Comfort Inn, Candlewood Suites; Mark Twain Caves Campground, Hannibal, Mo.; Columbia, Mo., in a real house; Hickory Haven Campground, Keokuk, Iowa; Milwaukee; NYC; Utica, N.Y.; back to NYC; back to Milwaukee; Lasalle, Ill.; Sullivan, Ill.

This reminds me of learning that Magic Johnson had slept with more than a thousand women; I always wondered how many days or years he spread that across. I mean, in 20 years, a tally of 1,000 women is not quite so epic for a guy who is clearly not shy. But fitting 1,000 into one highly active year? That would be madness.

A road trip can feel a little chaotic like that and it is time, I think, to consider a new strategy of campsite fidelity. Monog-campy.  How unlike the amped-up dash of Kerouac, moving the same way he typed—one long, taped-together sheet of paper threading through the typewriter, letting the words roll on and on like the road he traveled down with his stimulant-fueled consorts.

But let’s be real human beings for a moment. Remember: Each time Scampers such as  Colby and I move, it involves four basic steps:

  1. selecting a new destination, which means poring over maps and checking event calendars online and reading the reviews of campgrounds, plotting a course, making a reservation…
  2. Breaking down camp and hitching up the trailer, which I’m getting pretty good at but which still takes me at least five tries before the ball lines up right under the hitch (I’ve learned that the scamp is light enough for me to pull or shove it the final inch, though),
  3. Getting to the new place, and
  4. Setting up camp again.

I have decided to set up camp where I am for awhile, detach the trailer, and dash out for some day trips. It will be easier. And truthfully, it would be better for Colby, who is a creature of routines, and likes to feel grounded, I think. Every time I start to pack the car again, the look on his fuzzy face says, “really?”

I shouldn’t expose the boy to my geographic infidelities. We will sit. Stay.

Colby in the Park

When Lonely is What Your Daddy Warned You Not to Be…

The truth is, almost everywhere I go the people I meet are truly, sincerely, good and honest souls. In some cosmic formulation that even Bonnie Raitt sang about (“Whether your sunglasses are off or on/You only see the world you make”) and, come to think of it, Rickie Lee Jones chimed in too (“the world you make inside your head. that’s the one you see around you, that’s what I said…”) (Really, come to think of it, most of my pop/rock gods and goddesses have taught this same lesson)… it seems there is a general consensus that positive thinking creates positive experiences.

I believe this. I believe that people are good, too, because they demonstrate this to me all the time, like when my car was broken into twice in one week back home in New York City. Yeah, yeah, that sucked but, wait!! Someone found my registration mixed in with the broken glass in the street and took the time to mail it back to me! The two-time window-smashing bummer of a human being who had so messed up that week was easily forgotten in the ecstasy of moral triumph I felt, finding that registration in the post box.

However: Road tripping with my dog in search of some of the saddest parts of our country, my focus is actually not on positive goodness, but on desperation and/or plain old despair. So the world I see is the world…I…make in my mind and witness and then wish I hadn’t conjured up, basically. As if the sad truth of the world is all my fault. (Maybe it is…?)

On a trail in a large, beautiful park just outside downtown Rockford, Illinois, I took Colby for a big walk before doing a few laps of the main road to get a long run in. Great park: long green lawn rolling off to, apparently, a reservoir–though I never saw one. I did see lush woods and patches of re-established prairie grass around bubbling brooks that here and there pooled up deep enough for a dog to splash into (though Colby really just likes to stand at the edge of the water and drink it). There were some clues to a less happy reality there too, though. First, it seemed odd to me that the park was so empty on a gorgeous fall Saturday. But, maybe everyone was busy at home, reading. Yeah, that’s it probably. Some of the nicer houses of Rockford back up to that park, so possibly looking at it is enough for those who know the place is there.

Next clue: there was a large gate with a sign on it that said it would be used to lock off the nature center where the children’s programs run during certain days and hours in the summer. Is it really necessary to protect the children by gating off the road that leads to them? Well perhaps I was reading into it; perhaps they have big fuzzy animals as part of a petting zoo that they are trying to keep corralled in there. Sure. Okay.

Now, as for the series of rust-bucket cars that came and went in the upper parking area with people sitting in the front seat who never got out but who ducked down furtively now and then and, after awhile, just sat there leaning back with their eyes closed…well, what I have to say about that is, when I was a teenager, people used to go to the parks to do drugs, but, they tended to sit in a circle in the grass playing their guitars while doing it. It was really a more innocent time.

Yes, the world has definitely changed, but that’s what I’ve come out here to witness. So I don’t just lock my door and stay home, but when I walk my dog in places where I’m not entirely confident about the mix of people, I try not to end up anywhere too lonely. On a path in the park in Rockford, I did wonder if I should turn back when I came across a thin, nervous-looking man and a dog larger than both Colby and me, but my faith in people won over. Besides, there were other people walking the trail; there are still plenty of people, everywhere I go, who are enjoying the world despite the honest sense that something has gone terribly wrong in it, and we seem more or less to be looking out for each other.

“You don’t look like you’re from around here,” the man said.

“Oh?” Should I confess that I’m not? Would that make me too vulnerable? The answer is to stick to monosyllables and smile.

“Nice dog,” he said.

“Yup,” I answered. And later, in answer to another question, “I’m doing some travel writing.”

“Oh! I write too…”

And he told me that he wrote about his struggles with bipolar disorder, something that too many people I have known have also struggled with. “I don’t mean to scare you,” he said. “But it was some pretty scary stuff that happened to me.”

“Hey, writing is the way to get through it,” I said, having written my way out of some deep madness myself at least once in my life. Then I snapped Colby’s leash on, and we left. Because I thought we really had to; because there was no sense in staying in a spot where even the person I was speaking too acknowledged that the rational response would be fear.

I don’t fear the world, actually. This is largely because I was born with a freakishly depleted store of foresight; I have tried to learn to look as far ahead as I need to but I have never seen ahead to the reasons that make some actions a bad idea. And it is my lack of fear that lets me do something like haul my dog and trailer across the country to begin with; and it was the honest-to-god good people who stopped in Rockford to help me when my trailer bounced off its hitch in the middle of the road…(thank you Debbie Lynn! Thank you, anonymous man!)

Still, smart money hedges a little bit–and so I hedge, if only to acknowledge that in this world, there are some deep pockets of darkness and it’s a good idea not to think you already know exactly where they are. And so, too, I have decided to acknowledge a suggestion my father made a few weeks ago and change the tag line on this blog which, until today, read “One woman, one dog, one scamp, keep moving.” Changed. Done. And we roll along.

Shuttered buildings

Road Trip Itinerary Forged in Hell

steel mill
If you had a few months and a car and a trailer and a dog, where would you go? Cross out most of the continents on our planet because you can’t get this stuff across the oceans, so, South Africa is definitely out, though very appealing (and the elephant sanctuary is definitely a place I want to get to eventually). Even Central/South America, while technically drivable, are unlikely destinations because these would involve passing through Mexico where in some states the chances of being held up and robbed of all your stuff (see blog post #2/Packing for details on what all the stuff is) would be very high. I do not mean to slur Mexico but it really can be dangerous, and the drug crime is out of control in some parts, so, it’s not my top choice for an adventure.

(Though actually, let me say that I have known two people–one an ex’s cousin’s partner, one a cab driver I spent some time talking to while stuck in traffic one day–who did do Road Trips through Mexico, both about 40 years ago; the cab driver actually made it down through Argentina because he was in a Volkswagen bug whose engine he had converted to be able to run on just about anything, including filtered cooking oil, and the ensuing adventures made so captivating a story that I almost wanted to hug the guy when we finally got to the airport and I had to get out of the cab. But I digress…)

So let’s say you are planning a road trip in North America, probably just the U.S. and Canada–but because Canada is really beautiful (and feels almost exotic, once you get outside Toronto; you can practically drive to the Hudson Bay, check out the map, there’s this one road that goes, like, to the north pole sort of), I have agreed with my partner Suzanne that I will save Canada for next summer when we can do it together. So now the territory has been narrowed to the United States of America, but it’s a big country, so you have to pick and choose. Steinbeck, when he traveled with his dog, made a ring around the country, which as anyone knows means that he didn’t really see the country at all, because when you cling to the edges you see only the easy stuff, the beaches, the largest cities, the most beautiful national parks. I mean, L.A.? Seattle? Boston? Been there, done that. Most people have done that, if they’ve seen anything in this country at all. It’s in the middle where things get real, and that is where I decided to go, and where in fact I am now–as I write, I am in Missouri.

Another aside: At dinner the other night with some of the faculty of Missouri’s famed journalism school, I mentioned that I’d done some “apartment swaps” with my NYC home in order to spend time in Europe; “what Parisian would want to come to Columbia, Missouri?” they laughed (because in the Midwest people are too good natured, generally, to complain so they laugh at themselves instead). “Everyone wants to come to Missouri,” I exclaimed, banging the dinner table. It is not exactly true but I think it should be.

Alright, so I want to go off the beaten path. But that still leaves a lot to figure out. Once I’d decided to travel with Colby through the middle of the country, I next anchored my route in three conferences: the first is in Rockford, Illinois, hosted but the Society of Industrial Archaeology (yes! it is the geekiest sounding organization ever! and it is also profoundly awesome, so, more of that in a future post); the second is with the Pioneer America Society in Utica, New York, but that is sort of inconvenient because it means backtracking–I will have to fly back to get to that one, but it involves the Mohawk Valley and the Erie Canal, where I have recently been, so it is totally relevant even if it occurs out of order–and the third is in Indianapolis, Indiana, a conference hosted by the National Trust for Historic Preservation. These are the anchor points. They are spread out into November. To fill out the time in between, I looked at a big, beautiful map of America and felt…well…overwhelmed.

There is too much there. I cannot see it all. I can try and try, I can turn down every road I see, but I will never get to see it all. It is folly. It is like trying to eat once in every single restaurant in New York City, including all the deli salad bars. It can’t be done and even if you came close, every day a new place pops up and you’d

have to add that to the list; the list is endless. You’d eat and eat and eat all day every day and still, there would be more. America is like that.sunset road

Break out a map, kids. (And I do mean “A MAP” and not your GPS, because it’s not driving directions we want here but an overview; GPS is a tool, but maps are the world.) Look: I love the map, it fills me with impossible desire. I want to touch each place on it once, I want to be everywhere, I start to ache. There is a canal in Illinois called the Hennepin. Who the hell knew? I mean, we barely recall the Erie Canal and it was both an engineering marvel and an economic super-engine. Who the hell built the Hennepin? Why am I not kayaking on it today? The number of little state and national parks is extraordinary, though I am not quite so sad to not be able to experience each one as I am sad to miss seeing every single town and city, because at least with parks I can more or less know what’s going to be there–nature! glorious, American nature, waterfalls, ponds, trees, dirt, all the stuff our government (in the time when it was wise and smart and not shut down, as it is right now, as I type) had the foresight and determination to preserve for future generations as humanity churned up the real estate. So I can pass over the parks but how can I live with myself for not spending an hour at least in Monmouth Illinois where Wyatt Earp was born? And I drove through Macomb, where I discovered Western Illinois University as if it was the Grand Canyon and I was a 16th century Spaniard on a horse: My God, look at that! There is a university here! A big one that I will never teach a class at! What is wrong with me? And is there a mill in Duncan Mills and what does it make? Are there baths in Bath? Why are so many names in Illinois the same as the names in NY and NJ, like Brooklyn and Schuyler County and Camden? This is just a little piece of one page of a map covering one part of one state and it is absolutely beyond my ability to know anything about 99 percent of it. There is no time. I look at the little dots in the map and I feel like an old friend of mine did when she saw tiny kittens and swelled with impossible love and when she felt bowled over in this way, she would say, “I want to hold them in my mouth.” I do. I want to stuff America into my mouth and hold it there, where it will be safe.

But, no. I did not eat my map. Instead, I plotted a route across the middle of America in which I would be able to see as much as possible, and specifically (because I have a plan; there is a post on that too) I am looking for places where American industrial and manufacturing might was born and grew and eventually faded, because I am interested in those things as a way of understanding our country, and where it finds itself now, which is a strange place indeed, full of much disappointment and confusion. This country is not all ruins and disappointment; it is a marvelous place, too, and I know that, but sometimes I can’t remember exactly why, so I’m going to have a look.

The itinerary is “forged in hell” in a way because when I recite the major sights I plan to see, most people I know are basically glad not to be with me even if it would mean they were not at work today, or this week–or, this year basically. Here are the highlights:

The Mohawk Valley–> Buffalo –> The Allegheny Mountains and Oil City, Titusville –> Pittsburgh –> steel towns in the region known as Pennsyltucky –> Elkhart Indiana (The RV Hall of Fame!) –> Rockford, Illinois –> Hannibal, Missouri –> Columbia, Missouri –> some place in Iowa along the Mississippi River, preferably a place that has lost about half its population and most of its jobs –> Milwaukee –> Green Bay –> Utica, and NYC for a break. After the break, pick up the camper and dog in Milwaukee and head on down through Illinois, through parts of Kentucky and southern Ohio, up to Indianapolis, then over to Altoona Pa., West Virginia, Maryland, New Jersey, and home. And when that’s done, I think I’ll try the southern states, but, I’m a northern girl through-and-through, so, I’ll have to get all this in first as practice to prepare for that.

Thinking of how I have sometimes been afraid to show up in small, broken towns that I have seen along the way, and how I am a little worried to go poking around in some areas with my New York license plates, it strikes me that it is very strange indeed, to fear my own country. I’m not talking about driving into the bad crime areas. I’m talking about entering the unknown, and wondering if I will find that we’ve become hostile to ourselves, our fellows in this country. I felt that in the dead and dying steel towns south of Pittsburgh. At times, I can’t quite comprehend that we are creatures who share a home, share a government… but we do. And so I’m on the road, to introduce myself, and hope that we can find some way to get along, once we get to know each other.

Lonely but not *lonely*

I should mention at this point that it’s really sort of hard to be lonely-lonely when I know I have someone at home looking forward to seeing me again. So there’s the catch: I wanted to go off and recall the experience of loneliness, but, it’s only safe to do that because I know I’m not really alone. That’s kind of a new thing since the last time I set off to travel on my own, and it occurs to me that I should be careful what I wish for…